I've noticed on a lot of blogs that the writers often enjoy posting pictures from google or pinterest or wherever. These pictures are supposed to reflect their moods, thoughts, etc, yet it's always seemed odd to me. They talk about how they feel, how bad things are going, they're depressed, and whatnot. And I don't understand it.
Sometimes I feel extremely disconnected from the rest of the world - the emotions of the world. I am an unemotional person. From 15 - 18 or so I felt almost no emotions at all. The only one I would feel (With some minor exceptions) would be limited happiness in a situation that would put most people into giggling hysterics of joy.
Around 17 or so I was put on a natural hormone therapy regime to bring up my levels of hormones and I was also diagnosed with hypothyroid (which produces hormones). Apparently, I didn't have many and it caused me to be unable to feel as well as other people. Even now, my levels are normal and I should feel, but I don't. Not to the extremes I witness from others.
I enjoy life, but without the roller coaster. When I'm out and about, I slip on a mask, I can laugh, I can be serious, whatever the situation calls for, I do it without even realizing. It's what people expect, and now it's what I expect of myself.
I'm a chameleon.
I adapt to my situations, my surroundings, I blend in. Some might assume this means I'm not 'being myself,' that I should just 'be who I am' no matter where I am, but that is who I am. Adaptable, content wherever. Now there are situations that I prefer, and situations I don't appreciate as much as others, but I can deal.
I have peace.
God has granted me a peaceful blessed life, and even if I were a more emotional person, I would be an ungrateful wretch if I didn't see how wonderful the life is that He has given me.
This post started as something completely different and went off on a ramble, and if you read the whole thing and stayed with it. Props to you. I'm not even sure any of this made sense.